The only feeling that is floating in my head is exhaustion since i just came back from the St. John camps. Yes, i am saying camp with an s at the end. It was actually a long Easter holidays with a good Friday and an Easter Monday, but i spent my long weekend with my St.John juniors and canoe trip team members. Wow! Both of the camps made me feel exhausted phystically, but they were so worthful to mention because they would become one of my most rememberable memroies. It's a long 'story' but i am patient enough to tell it to you! Hehehe..yes i know i am crazy since i am the only person who is going to read it but nevermind! Who cares! Wahahahaha..okay! Back to the topic! Yes yes...on Friday i went to pick up Ken and Jeffery to shop for food that we were prepared for the canoing trip. Around 4 oclock my sister and I went to pick up Ken, Jeffery, and Tim at Ken's house again, then we went to the north for about 20 minutes to a camp site called ...i dont' really remember! Hehehe....well..it has something wood something..hehehe..yea...it was freezing on that day, although the sun was shinning brightly on top of my head. I even needed to borrrow Tim's dA Frog and Jeffery's sweaters since i didnt' bring enough clothes. After the dinner and decoration, we had a meeting and sang some camp fire songs. During the break time, i made a phone call to Kevin around 10:30. He was driving on his way home after the fellowship. Then here was the amazing part of the night that we went to see stars on an opened field outside. On our way to the big pine, it was so dark that i was a little bit afraid. The chilly wind blew so hard that i felt so dizzy while i watched the stars. At that moment i hoped so badly that Kevin could watch it with me. Oh yea! On that night i actually slept in the boy's side beside Tim. I didn't sleep very well on that night tho since it was so cold and my bed was right near the window. THe next day i woke up at 7:15 with the guys. After we all got changed into St.John uniforms, we had our breakfast before we went out to pick up the kids in the parking lot. The sun lay to us once again that it was still so cold when it was out. We and the kids went to lift up the flag. Then we divided the teams. My partners were Felix and Eric, but Eric never helped. The name of my team was Bunny Boppers. I had three girl juniors and two boy juniors, which were Jason and Chris. They both were too naughty to handle compare withother kids from my team. Jason was so inactice that i needed to always keep an eye on him. On the other hand Chris always went around to beat people up. Hahaha..the cheer was so funny that it was the lambest one among all the teams. It was a one- lined cheer. " The Bunny, The bunny, the bunny boppers yeah!"As i spent more time with my kids, i developed a cetrain caring and belonging to the jouiors, even with other kids from other teams. Emily, who was a girl from my team, asked so man questions. I always made fun on them but they still laughed about it, which make me feel very sweet amd comforable. They called me "guess" since i told Emily not in purpposely when she asked me what's my name. Lol! The girls even made up rumors about I like Andy, Felix, Tim andken! Come on girls! They are all my friends! How could we moved on to another stage that we all have never thought about? As Emily called me Guess more often, other juniors also got to know me bettter! They also started to call me Guess too! I was so glad that htey actually remembered me as if i was very outsanding among the others. I felt sorry for the kids beacuase i actually did not know how to help them to win any games. Emily and other girls even asked me to engage Ken on Monday night in the public cuz they wanted to see! Hehehe..they were so cute! I love all of them! Hehehe. Throughout the entire junoir camp, I felt so glad that Ken and Jeffery were always helpful to me when i was in troubles. Ken and Jeffery always took care me since i could hardly take care of myslelf! Hehee..oh yea! In the monk meal, Ricky and Eric put some smashed potato in my plant, so i licked the smashed potato and put it on Ricky's face. It was so srcrewed that they actually took a revenge on me! They put the sauce oh my face! For the skit, Chris and others chose to do "she bangs' that i was so crappy that no one got it! HWahaha...i felt so embarased when i was alone standing in front of the crew. Hehehe..oh my god! For the camp fire, since we did not know how to sing any of hte songs from the booklet, we actaully sang twang twang little star! Sigh...the kids should be very disappointed! Sigh...The environment in the camp site was pretty amazing and beatuiful, especially when you walked in there when the sun was bright and the sky was blue. Although i did not get enough time to rest my body and soul, but i actually enjoyed the time that i spent with the kidos! The kids even broke news about me getting 7 votes from them for the best female leader! I was just one vote to win the prize with Lisa! But i was happy enough to know it because i had never worked with kids before! After the kids went home, the campe site actually became so quiet htat i was not so used to it! Sigh! I pretty miss them now! I actually had developed some emotional attachment to those who was in my team and those i talked to! We listend to Wo Sir about the information of canoing, then we had dinner outdoor. It was actually pretty hard to get the fire on in the S something something. I did not like the idae of cooking and eating outisde, but that's the rule~ Ken took care of everyone that it actually impressed me a lot. He does not behaviour like a grade 11 when he came to be very serous. I didnt not expecet to have anything to do in the late mid-night but they arranged us to wake up and make a camp fire at 2, while we only got 1 and a half hours of sleep! Then we went back to bed at 4 and woke up again at 7:25. In the morning we went to do some exercise then ate the branch. It was pretty amazing! Then Wo sir came by and had so much fun with us! I was very special that i started to develope some feelings with Ken...i mean...Ken...i never thought i would have feeellings that are more than friends would have between each other. Um...i felt very good to have someone to take care of me..but...i don'tknot..i am flower heart! Wahaha..i know! Hehehe..anyway! It was pretty fun and amazing! Later~
- posted by milala6891 @ 8:49 PM

 
It's been a month since the last time i wrote a post on Blogger. Time is flying away silently that we could hardly notice the speed it takes in every second. Sigh~ For some reason life i starting to be busy and complicated once again. The huge amount of workload is already driving me insane that i need to hypervenilate in order to keep me alive. Not too long ago i went to see mental hit with Winson, i just found out that i need tons of calcium...um...i mean... what can i say about it? Can i make any commons that could comfort me? Probably not~ From now on i have to drink three cups of milk! Milk is not in my list of favorite drink~ It is going to be a barrier for me fitness plan. However my knee is hurt so i have to listen to the doctor! I can not let Edith down! Um...St. John! Yes...is it always true that once a place get to have people exist, that place will turn into diaster, and full of rumors flying around? The answer to this quesiton is quite obvious that it is true. It is very good news I got promoted, however i hate to deal with social problems in between people. The duty and responsibilty is way too big for me to take. I am just a girl who does nothing well except wasting money and time~ What can i do for this essential organizatoin in the neighborhood? Honestly my feelings toward the promotion is still in the contradicted stage, where i can not help thinking about the responsiblity that i have to take aftwards. Nevertheless, my life is not only about St.john, but i also have to deal with other business such as making my profilio, piano exam, school clubs and all sorts of things. Sigh~ What can i do? I have no clues. All these business has already absorbed every bit of my energy . Why am i living such a busy life compare with people like Arnold and others who have so much spare time for their own. Why can i not be like them? Is it because i am way too active? Kevin...what can i say about him...sigh~ Again here is another sighing signal, which means i don't know what to do again~ Through perry lam, i realise that i should not let him know my true feelings to him? Why can i not let him? I just want to feel no regrets and be honest to him and myself! Seriously i do not think i have to hide it away from him! Too bad that i dislike to do the hint hint thing! Life is very complicated and i just want my emotions could be told and straighten up my thoughts! Love could be a simple matter, it is only dependent on you how you see and handle it! All i really want to do is to hang around with him for these last three months. I can not see the problem in here~ But at this moment, i really feel thankful to Joe cuz he made me feel what love trully is again. He gave me the strenght to find it back! And Victor too! He always supports me whenever i am stressed out or despressed over something! His words are so powerful that i could go through all the big stones on my bumpy road! Hehehe...Although i am pretty much stressed out and tired, but i understood one thing that i still have to live no matter how tough the situation is going to be! It's a big lesson in my life, just like any other huge difficulties that i had been through. I know i will be fine! Tomorrow is a good Friday but i still have to set up the camp for St.John Junior Camp! My great weekend is gone! And all the report and esssay have to be done by Tuesday! Sigh...live is hard...but...it will be fine!
- posted by milala6891 @ 8:19 PM